I saw the blue moon this morning. Heh, nothing so blue about it. It’s a phenomenon that happens once every 42 years or so in a century. It being spectacular only because it’s the time you get two full moons within the span of the same calendar month, as the moon takes exactly 29.5 days to complete a phase. Today is also the National Day of Malaysia, as Lee Yuen pointed out earlier. It is also the anniversary of Princess Di’s death.

There are many details in my head now, and I seem to be dwelling subconciously in most of them. I’ve been living in the present worrying about the future before this, and for the last couple of days, I’ve been recalling minute details at random points in time over the life that was me years ago. Reminiscing how at this time of the year, I’d be preparing for mid semester exams or rushing assignments until the wee hours of the morning. Heh, not that I miss any of these things, quite the contrary, I’m glad these things are over.

We were a younger family once. My relatives would go over to my grandma’s place for dinner on a weekly basis on Sunday. Life was harder then, as everyone needed to make a living to raise their respective families. For me, my mom needed to pay for our educations, and so I did not have too many luxuries to indulge in back then. I recall the Hakka dishes my grandma would prepare and I absolutely relished them back then. My cousins were younger kids back then, and they’d flock around each other chattering at the top of their voices and playing games. You could hear the laughter and while I was too young then, I now recall how warm the feeling of family is.

These days, my grandma’s place has quieten down. The children are older now and have more commitments to tuition and other social activities. I don’t think they visit as much anymore. Out of 4, 3 of my cousins who stay with my grandma are already at New Zealand pursuing a tertiary education. Things have also quieten down, since my aunt’s passed away. On Sunday, she would be giving piano lessons to my cousins, baking bread and making coffee for afternoon tea. I do wonder about mom at times. My brothers are busy with their own commitments and don’t come home as much anymore.

Exercise gives you endorphines. Endorphines make people happy.

Heh, to quote Elle Woods from Legally Blonde. Sleep hasn’t been too good to me lately, and last night’s after dinner latte with Chun Fei and Ei Lene got me up early this morning ( 3 or 4 cups of coffee in the day definitely don’t help much). Decided to go insane and take a brisk jog at the park where Qi Xian and I used to jog in the late afternoons.

It’s weird. For a person with Dory type memory, every scent, sight and sound reminds me of someone or something now. Heh, I feel okay. I’m happy for the happiness I see in other people, and for the little things I can do and help to make others happy.