It’s been a bit hard to concentrate or focus on any one particular activity these days. I remember when I was younger I could mesmerise myself in a computer game for long hours at a time. Heh, the only thing that prevented me from staying mesmerised was either school, homework or that guilty conscience of knowing that my mom would lecture me if I stayed too long glued to the computer screen.

Back there was a time I would also be prone to boredom for lacking something interesting to do. Time would take an eternity to go by. These days is quite the opposite, as I have too many things I want to do, hence it is quite difficult to be bored (well, boredom still occurs when I have deadlines to meet for things I don’t enjoy doing, like assignments or job applications) or spend too much time focused on any one type of activity. Can we have 36 hour days instead?

I used to spend a lot of time reading and tinkering with software so that I could know them like the back of my hand. I owe a lot of my current computer skills to those time periods lost in space. These days there’s an anime or science fiction series I’d want to watch but can’t spare the time. Making up the time for it means I have less time to socialise with friends or to tinker with computers like I used to. Then there is also the compulsory work commitments and doing job applications whenever an opening comes up. So how in the world am I supposed to get anything done like that? My only answer has been to sleep less and spend less time procrastinating idly doing nothing. Unfortunately, sometimes you’re so sick of doing whatever it is you’re doing, you just feel like doing nothing at all.

Heh, which is exactly what I’m doing right now.