Tense…

Doesn’t actually look right when I spell it.

The last few months have been a roller coaster ride. Although there were more lows than highs. They say you can get used to almost anything. Probably have. It’s just odd. Life doesn’t feel as exhilarating, or as scary as it should be. Maybe you just get numb. The feeling I’ve concluded towards having is being tense.

Heh, wonder at times, that my mind is just like an intricate city network. You are travelling to your destination, but an accident upfront may cause a traffic jam a kilometre away and you won’t even know the cause of it. Having no control over things is annoying I guess. Not knowing what is making you lose control is even worse.

It’s been hard to focus lately. Can’t seem to do anything without my mind wandering off to worry about other things that need to be done. Time seems to be rushing by. Try to watch an episode of anything, and I have to shuffle myself off to work. Try to free myself from social commitments to do serious work, and you have the mobile phone and internet to get connected again.

Where to go, what to do. Heh, ask and you shall receive. I said this before I think. Only problem is, I don’t know what I’m supposed to ask anymore. No, I’m not feeling bleak. Just tense.