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Sunrise

Heh, have this tendency to KO in bed way before my typical bedtime of 1am (I try but it’s hard to stay up until that late anymore) and wake up at an obscene hour the next morning. 6am isn’t really obscene, but it’s not happy hour in the morning either. The sun’s already up.

The weather’s been playing oddball lately. It was glaring to the point of blinding with the sun two days ago when I walked to work. Yesterday, it was gloomy and dismall, and rained periodically. Had dinner with my housemate as he’s leaving for KL today and I sat in the restaurant practically staring at the torrential like rains. It’s not too common for the Melbourne sky to pour its soul out like that.

Would like to post a random thought or two over the weekend before the month is over. Goodness, how time flies.

Having tea with coffeemate now. Heh, I still recall the first time trying this drink. I was ill (probably still in primary school) and my brother (No. 3) made this drink for me. It tasted weird back then. It’s more subtle now, but that’s also cause I’ve acquired a taste for almost anything that’s edible. Heh.

It’s No Longer Pocket Money

• Listening to: Nami Tamaki - Reason (Gundam Seed Destiny OST)

Heh, was spending time at Borders reading about personal financial management and mortgages. These aren’t topics that interest me to any extent, but when you come out into the working world, you are really ill prepared to handle all the responsibilitie to come with it. I read a funny quote that when you start working, you are now earning more than just your pocket money. These words ring so true. Prior to graduating, you apportioned your money for daily expenses, rent and bills, and whatever you had left you could treat yourself to a nice gadget or two. Then I started working and the pay isn’t too bad and you could probably afford a lot more gadgets and live more lavishly. The truth is, that lifestyle never really materialised. Looking at home loans and actually owning a piece of property as a roof over your head is really not that easy.

It’s really basic supply and demand. If houses were cheap, everyone would be able to afford one and soon houses would be like cars as a commodity and a lot of people might opt to have one house per person (as is the case for the cause of traffic jams in KL). It makes sense to price houses accordingly but somehow, you feel trapped into having to spend your entire working life paying off the fees that are associated with just keeping a roof over your head. Escalating oil prices of late have been highlighted on the local current affair shows on TV in Melbourne. A lot of people are finding it difficult to continue their current jobs because travelling costs have increased a lot to the point where it would save them money to not travel to the workplace.

Heh, not something I’m too keen to write about, but only because we should be aware of all these ‘down to earth’ things in life.

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On the lighter side of things, have taken this Sunday (my first in a very long, long time) to not even bother with recreational activities. Just taking the time to clear out my hard disk with backups and reordering some data. Also looking at the WordPress development cycle a bit, and am already thinking of new improvements for the next design version of this blog.

Waiting for the end of the month so I can go watch Serenity on the bigscreen. It’s actually the bigscreen version of Firefly which I was giving such rave reviews on a while back. Something to look forward to this coming Friday. Heh.

Just Another Friday

Tis a Friday.

Just not feeling as enthusiastic as I should be.

Suddenly feel like getting away from it all. None of the computer tech updates, not wanting to change and upgrade that trusty PC of mine. Not wanting to play any games or watch any series or anime. Don’t know why, probably because there is a level of interaction involved with all these things that suddenly feels very stifling. I would be inundated with other people’s opinions and thoughts and beliefs. It has never been a problem, but sometimes just looking beyond the obvious, you question if you can really handle all of it. Trying to leap beyond my bounds to be more than that, you cannot see a landing and being foolhardy to try you end up crashing.

What do I want? At times, to be what other people want me to be. I can be satisfied with just that, to fulfill a void. Is that enough sometimes? Although, what I want can clash with other people’s idealogy, so how do I put it forth without offending other people? I really don’t know.

Deep down inside, there is that hint of a crack. It hurts.