Monthly Archives: November 2005

Thinking

★ Posted on at 10:06 pm ★

Just wanted to take a deep breath. *deep breath in*

Would like to talk about trivial stuff like coffee machines, computer geek stuff and maybe just the weather.

I am smug and loud, confident of my own geeky skills, in making things work and solving problems. Yet at times I feel apologetic, to know my place and keep up the silence so that new things actually go into my head instead of thinking I’m a know all (which I know I’m definitely not). Most times I feel appreciative, of the things I have, and the people close to me. Sometimes simplicity is best, even if I don’t say much.

I Don’t Know

★ Posted on at 08:19 pm ★

Self-criticism is an art not many are qualified to practice. – Joyce Carol Oates

I don’t know, I would say…

Maybe I do know, but saying so seems impolite? Inappropriate? Then how does one express the truth that is if you can’t say things without an edge in them?

We want so many things, yet do so little to achieve them? Can we then complain that we don’t get what we want? Have someone else shoulder the blame for our inadequacies?

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Some days you feel detached, with no one in particular to talk to. Not like we have the time to listen to someone else. Not like we’d understand.

Some days you feel misunderstood.

Some days you wonder why you try so hard.

Maybe we are all alike, waiting for someone else to call us up. Waiting and anticipating.

* * *

Sometimes I feel I need a slap to the face, to know what reality is.

Where the Weekend Went

★ Posted on at 12:06 pm ★

Was woken up by Ken this morning to go for coffee. At 7.40am. Heh, that’s probably the most effective alarm clock for getting a person out of bed.

The coffee wasn’t fantastic, but the exercise to go to Victoria market (and the yummy Bradwurst hot dog) got my blood circulating so I didn’t have any problems waking up.

Been spending the whole day up until now playing around with my website. I think I enjoy web design quite a bit (and it annoys me at times as well) because it’s a jack of all trades kind of thing. For me, I like to get most of the things done in house, so as much as my skillz allow me to, I’ll figure out a way to customise my site to my own liking. Customise is the word here, as the site depends on programming code written by other people. I’m only good at modifying code to suit my purposes.Heh, you do have to be intuitive on how the code works to be able to modify it though. :P

I haven’t been posting as many photos as I’d like, because the process is usually quite tedious. Work has taught me to find ways to automate stuff and make processes more efficient. That’s because I deal with those issues on a daily basis, hence I need to find ways to improve work flow, else they’d be mundane and bog me down. Posting pictures used to be like that, with finding a picture, resizing it, building the thumbnail, running the ftp client and uploading it, then manually linking the picture before I can finally post it. Since it wasn’t a compulsory activity, I could do with posting only every now and then.

Decided to revisit Flickr, an online image gallery/album of sorts that allows you to post your pictures for free. It’s quite a decent service, since it generates my thumbnails for me, and the free service lets you upload 20MB a month (which is more than I’ll need currently), it works for me. I decided to offload the images from my web server because I have limited space on my account, and somehow I feel that my pictures are more secure (in terms of storage) on Flickr than it is on my webhost! Best of all, no ads! The most recent photo in the Photography section is hosted on Flickr and I hope to migrate my entire online album to it when I have the time to sort these things out.

Right now, I’m trying to make my website more accessible to myself, so I can share more thoughts with a less clumsy interface that is easily updated to future versions of WordPress while retaining a method that makes it simple to archive and retrieve.

Heh, just having fun.