Monthly Archives: April 2006

Trudging Along

★ Posted on at 10:19 am ★

Walked past my entrance and only after a week of yellow, most of the leaves have fallen off the trees in my courtyard. It was a relatively quick transition, and you can feel it in the air as well, there isn’t the stifling heat when summer was still around.

Been a long week and everyday is like an entire event on its own. Friend left for New Zealand on Wednesday, assembled my Destiny model on Monday (which deserves a writeup on its own and all the little miscellaneous things I did since last Saturday.

Just needed to post something, heh, everytime I sit down in front of the computer to type something, it gets way too elaborate and I end up scrapping the whole piece.

*deep breath and a few hours later*

Trying to add content to this post because it’s too short and the design broke. Seriously need to redesign this site. I keep thinking again how overwhelming this all is, especially when I can make this into a fulltime job. Heh, well, at least for 2 weeks.

There is the site maintenance, setup, design elements, programming elements and simply finding content to put up. Not easy at all, but doable. Just need time, heh, and no distracting things like Oblivion to take my time away.

Epilogue

★ Posted on at 04:18 pm ★

It’s been a long week.

Maybe not one of my more spectacular weeks. It’s more like a crash and burn week. Heh, finished two exams and got on with life. Maybe had a little too much pent up energy, and was a Duracell rabbit for the better part of the week.

Feel that I have overstepped my bounds at times. Maybe I should give a little more space to everyone else. Sometimes I try to get everyone together, to spend time with everyone I know and care about. Maybe it’s not working very well and I end up doing spiteful things. Maybe I should claim back my own personal space as well. I have had things that I’ve wanted to do, but have never got round to doing. Maybe I’m spending too much time with everyone else. Not that I minded it very much, but that’s just me. At times I feel that I’m too egocentric with my own behaviour, and being enclosed by everyone’s own thoughts and actions, maybe I try to stand out, at the expense of other people.

Heh, be kind. Be kind.

Off Days

★ Posted on at 12:38 pm ★

There are off days.

I think and I don’t know what to think anymore. I try to follow the flow and it wants to go everywhere. I try to make everyone as happy as possible, but always fall short. Then again, I try from my own narrow point of view. Maybe I should stay clear of everything and stop. I want to take responsibility for all my wrongs. If you stood still, there is no chance of you upsetting the dirt underneath. Then again, you won’t be able to travel and see the things you wished to see. Somehow that seems a little irrelevant for the time being.

I don’t feel like tripping over anyone now. It hurts to disappoint someone else and there’s nothing I can do to mend it. Reasons fall to dust.