What’s Churning Inside

It takes only a day out of the usual routine to get me thinking about life and stuff.

Was at home sick yesterday with a bad cough and I should listen to advice to either go see a doctor or take medication. I did neither but was lucky enough to get temporary relief from my housemate in the form on some menthol/aniseed sweets that reduced the irritability of my throat and hence reduced my cough.

I’ve been sitting and wondering, waiting for things to happen. There always seems to be a want or need that needs to wait in line for it to be fulfilled. Been wanting to get some camera lenses but you pay a few hundred dollars extra if you buy them in Australia, as compared to buying them in Malaysia. You wonder why it’s so much cheaper back home, but if you were to take Malaysian salaries into account, dollar for dollar, I’m still paying much less if I were to buy it here in Melbourne. Heh, it’s a bad habit of mine to obsess over things until I get them, and I keep going over the specifications and facts of the item, memorising it’s strong points and what it is capable of. Then there are the avenues of options to acquiring stuff via eBay, or getting a cousin to bring stuff back for me. Heh, none of this materialised over the last 24 hours and I think I should just stick to the original plan of acquiring ONE piece of glass when I go back at the end of the year (only have two contenders now, a macro and an ultra wide lens, whether it is a Nikon or third party lens, that is still open to debate).

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I’ve been having a nagging feeling of getting a backup hard drive for my stuff and after last night’s scare, I think I will get it today. My computer’s been crashing randomly and I think an unresolved error on one of the hard disk partitions made my PC fall over. As this continuously happened, the problem grew more and more serious until finally last night, my computer decided to stop booting into Windows and gave me a BSOD (blue screen of death) error instead. Spent 3 hours and finally managed to get it working again and there was a scare as the partition that died was the one that housed my photos. No longer procrastinating, I’m buying an external drive and once that is copied over, a DVD copy of all the photos.

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Heh, another thing on my mind is the idea of getting a car. I’m still amazed at the fact that I have saved enough for half a Civic or Jazz after having worked for only a year. Again contrasting this to Malaysian salaries and expenditures. A Civic costs RM120k new while it costs AUD21k here new, albeit with slightly less accessories. In Malaysia, at the price of vehicles, to remain competitive, you throw in everything, even a steering lock (heh, or maybe not, but just intended for dramatism). There are lots of things to compare and contrast between a life back home and one over here in Melbourne (and that would be a story for another day). I just do not understand why people have to sell themselves out to hefty personal loans to purchase a car of choice and to pay off that loan over a few years, even as long as a decade.

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Anyway, done with ranting. Missed a day of work and all recharged and ready to get stuff done. As antisocial as I am, I need the routine of talking to people early in the morning, as in physically meeting and exchanging words, and not that ‘words popping up on your screen’ stuff. Okay, time to fly.

Baking Frenzy

Had Sunday brunch with cousins. Sort of an impromptu thing where a few MSN messages were exchanged (that’s how the world works now, you don’t call people, you just leave them online messages and wait for them to respond, heh). Vyanne made a sausage casserole, baked a quiche, some cinnamon rolls, herb bagels and blueberry bagels.

rolls

I made muffins and am quite excited about it. This was my third try and third time lucky. My muffins finally looked like muffins and not like shrunken rock buns. These are orange and poppy seed muffins.

muffins

Cooking is fun.

Under the Weather

Been feeling a little under the weather of late.

Found myself to be angry for the beginning stages of the week. Heh, had no reason to be angry, just wanted to be angry for the sake of being angry. It’s been a long time since I’ve been angry and it’s a conscious thing as I know if something disses me off. Maybe it used to be a problem a long time ago, and things that are problems I tend to take a hard, long look at. These days, it’s hard to stay upset at anything for any meaningful period of time. You just want to remember things as a lesson and get on with life, hoping not to make the same mistakes again.

With all the angst in me, I finally fell ill with all the usual nasty symptoms of coughing, sneezing and having sore bits here and there. Heh, I do wonder at times how the state of the mind can condition oneself.

“If I have lost confidence in myself, I have the universe against me.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

I do believe that no one can make us feel bad about ourselves and if we blame others for our own self doubt, we are just denying ourselves a chance to set things right. You cannot change someone else’s thoughts, but you can change your own.

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destiny

Haven’t had a proper phoo taken of Destiny yet. This model is currently adorning my printer and looks rather cool from the back. Heh.