Not terribly active writing this month. Heh, just spending time with Vyanne and friends when not working. Plus gaming when I just need something temporary to take my mind off things.

Heh, find myself of the reckless sort. It should be a big transition, moving from Melbourne, a place I’ve been at for more than 7 years now, to a totally foreign place that I’ve only ever heard of and seen in movies or TV shows. Then again, I don’t feel that much inside. There is hardly any excitement or fear in me and I think it just feels weird that I should be feeling that. The one thing that’s constantly been in my mind is the people I’ll be missing. When I came to Melbourne to study, I knew that things would be temporary as I’d always have an annual return ticket to Malaysia, so there was always something to look forward to, going home to friends and family. Now that I’m working, things revolve less around a fixed schedule and you feel apprehensive on what’s going on next in your life as nothing is planned or fixed.

Now I’m going to a far away land and I have only ever met 3 of the people I will be working with. Unlike when I came to Melbourne, I had Jack in the opposite room in the hostel of sorts we stayed in. We were all students from foreign places coming to learn and make friends. Not that I was terribly sociable back then. Heh. I am going to a new place where everyone has already settled into their lives and I will be the one intruding on the daily schedules of people.

I do adore the people I’ve come to known here in Melbourne. They’ve been good friends and housemates. Heh. I have learnt never to forget the generosity given by people and as much as I can, I’d like to be reciprocate the kindness.

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On a side note, to humour myself, I’m typing this blogpost on my spanking new Dell laptop. Computers are basically the only thing that can keep me entertained other than hanging out with friends. TV doesn’t quite do it for me as it gets dull after a while and books are unimaginative when you aren’t concentrating on it. Heh, a PC is useful for keeping in touch with people, writing boring, random blog posts, post processing photos, listening to music, watching videos, gaming etc etc etc. You get the picture. Heh.

It’s a decent system, with an Intel Core 2 Duo at 1.83GHz. 2GB of RAM and a smallish HD of 80GB, but at least it runs at 7200rpm, for the performance (I know, geekspeak). It has a 12″ widescreen and the last time I used anything of this size was on my first laptop that I got in 1998. Other than squinting most of the time to see the smallish text, the screen is quite bright and fun to use. Another big plus is this is the first time I have a laptop (well only on my third one now) that has a decent graphics card in it. I only need it so that I can run games looking at least partially decent on my laptop. Heh. So far World of Warcraft and Command & Conquer 3 run fine on it. Heh, not too fussy on the gaming end as long as WoW runs. While I’ll be out of the same time zone as the people I normally play with, it’s still manageable.

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So how do I feel going over? Heh, just pending the US consulate interview. Always apprehensive with things and I don’t feel comfortable until everything has been stamped and returned to me in the proper order. It’s just that peace of mind I need before I can go on thinking about other things. I’m probably very ill prepared for this trip but I will make the most of it. Can I pack my life in a suitcase? In terms of material posessions, nothing much I need to survive on other than my computer and camera. So it’s a partial yes. On the other hand, I will miss my friends and family very much. I will adapt, as most people do, but I will constantly be reminded of home, and strangely enough, Melbourne has become a home of sorts, even if I have only been here for seven odd years.