It’s the half year mark, and what a half year it’s been.

Heh, just looked back at what I wrote last year and it’s almost exactly the same thing, recognising the half year milestone. It’s good to have these posts to just check back and see what I’ve been doing. I do recall that period, with Vyanne making her Bak Zhang, and everyone who tried it loved it. The weather was also getting colder too, in contrast to it getting warmer over here. I don’t prefer either very much, as I tend to hibernate a little more during the initial stages of the cold as my body adapts to the lower temperatures. Then again, when it’s hot I just focus too much on the heat and not concentrate on my stuff. So it’s kind of like a Goldilocks scenario where you want it just right.

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It’s already nearly 3 weeks I’ve been in NYC, and the excitement has died down quite a bit. I’m just a little weary of things these days. There’s been a rush of emotions and none of that has done me too much good. Personally feel that I’m standing on lofty grounds on how I’m progressing with my stay here. On the one hand, I find the experience very refreshing (even if it is terrifying at times). There is so much to explore here in NYC, so much to learn. Everyday as I take in the city, the more I learn about the place, it’s history and culture. It has such a rich background that you do wonder about its past and there’s just so much to read about. Heh, can’t say I felt the same way about Melbourne when I was first there. It wasn’t much of a place, so I looked up Australian history instead. I was younger back then, so probably held less of an interest of these things.

My current role in my job is also an eye opener in the world of finance. Sure it feels like my colleagues are talking a foreign language when they discuss their stuff, but out of all that jargon, you manage to pick up little pieces that you start stringing together to make a more coherent whole. My current role allows me to see what I’ve been following up on the past 2 years since I started this job, and things are starting to make a little more sense. It can be quite exhilarating learning new things.

Then again, all the above seem to mean very little at times, especially after work when I go home. Exploring NYC alone gets tiring after a while, especially in such a big city when you have no direction of where you are going. I miss hanging out with friends, or just idle social chatting to keep the brain going. Communicating online just doesn’t feel the same, eventhough you can do it in real time now. There will always be the technological glitch where you miss something or when you are multitasking and things just slip through.

There is a tremendous amount of energy required to just keep oneself going. I do get that support at times from friends, family and prayer. It’s just that no one has any idea how it’s like to be far away from everyone and everything you know and trying to keep up with it. Sometimes, I just seem to fall short and trip myself over. It is hard to relax most of the time, when you have to watch over yourself every step of the way, to make sure that you are taking care of yourself. On my own, sometimes there’s just so much to handle it feels so daunting.

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I’m just giving myself a good go now, to see how things work out and by the end of this month, I’d know how I feel towards this new city, which is a little less foreign now, but still capable of swallowing me whole anytime if I’m not careful. Heh. Just need to be honest with myself, as this is not one of those things that I can ride out and hope it will sort itself out.