Cousins made sushi for dinner on Saturday. It was tasty, and I couldn’t stop eating. I did eventually, when the food ran out. Have always liked taking pictures of hands at work.

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Another week starts. I’m losing focus. Studying when I can, although that’s hardly worth looking forward to. Getting more professional certification when I’d rather be doing things hands on. The weather is not helping, it’s been cold and I’m bordering on keeping myself from falling sick. Just not operating under ideal conditions, and you make the best of things, but sometimes one just wants to falter and crash out.

I just need to remind myself of what I should be doing. The lack of work is the most nagging issue at the moment. It needs to be rectified soon, and I’ve always been lousy at doing things that rely on others. I can only push through so many job applications a day for things I can work in. You begin to doubt yourself at times, did I try enough in my previous job to get more experience, am I really good enough to be hired? Sometimes I just don’t know.

A friend mentioned that it doesn’t matter if you don’t get successful with an application, it just means that there is a better job waiting for you. Heh, those words were from 2005, when I was still selling fish, getting frustrated and trying to hang on.

I’m just feeling a greater sense of urgency these days. Not quite sure what to do with myself.