It’s that time of the year again. I’m just thinking back about what went passed. The memories are a little less vivid this year. NYC seemed like a distant memory. It’s not that I don’t have fond memories of the place, but NYC was mainly work and it can be a cold, soul sapping place during the first 3 or so months of the year. You just don’t really feel like doing very much then. Feeling alone in a place with a population of millions, that just doesn’t sound quite right, but in truth it was very much so. I survived it, but thinking back, I don’t think I prospered very much during my time there. I could have done so much more.

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Heh, it’s the final countdown. Sitting for my CFA exam next week. Averaging 60% on sample questions everytime I do them. Not a good score, as you need 70% to pass. Have less than a week to rectify the situation. Retention of info is more efficient now, as there is a basis no what I need to know for the exam. Still wondering if I will pass it. It’s going to be an arduous Sunday next week, with the schedule starting at 8am, needing to arrive an hour before the exam. 2 x 3 hr sessions, with lunch in between, ending at 5pm. It will be the emancipation of me after that, with so many things lined up that I feel like doing for the month of December.

Besides the exam, the only other thing floating in and out of my mind is work. Working for a big organisation presents its own challenges. I have met so many people that I’m not quite sure if I remember all of them by now. Boundaries of duties and responsibilities are blurred so you don’t quite know what authority you have at times to do something. A lot of things aren’t the most efficient allocation of resources but it’s a legacy system that’s been in place since before I was born, so making changes is like moving an iceberg. Heh, not impossible, just rather tedious.

Work provides certain challenges. I no longer feel as green as I did when I first started back in 2005. I feel more comfortable dealing with people, problems and issues. Perhaps its a new environment, I’ve ditched the procrastination and am more willing to learn. I don’t think I want to waste the opportunity to pick up new skills and progress in my career.

This leads me to vague ideas at times, wondering where I fit into the grand scheme of things. It’s strange, how everyone is leading their lives. It’s not a benchmark, but I feel like I’m following a standard guide towards life, all preprogrammed in my mind as I grew up and progressed from one stage to another. The truth is, once you come out of university, there is no template left to follow. Maybe I am simple minded in that sense, of lack a vivid imagination, but there are times when I’m not quite sure what I’d like to do with my future. It just seems that everyone has a clearer vision on what they’d like to achieve, or are more single minded on what they’d choose to do or not. I have always dragged myself along the current of time, just going wherever it took me.

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Heh, start of month posts aren’t supposed to be so philosophical.

It’s going to be a busy month. Work as usual, lots of people visiting. I have a lot of ideas of what I’d like to do, and I wouldn’t be able to fit all that in with one breath. In summary, it would just be cleaning and tidying, a little reorganising of personal belongings, personal priorities and the like.

Now it’s just exam, pain, relief… then all the fun in the world!