I like the fiery reds from autumn leaves. There’s still a chance to capture some of them before they all fall off leaving just the carcass of trees when winter sets in.

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I’m at a point in time at work where I don’t feel like I’m contributing very much any more. I used to be very orderly with how I organised my work, and these days, I’m just a disorganized mess chasing shadows. I am not a good complainer, and am never good at defending myself when it comes to work. I don’t have the instant comeback required to re butt people. It’s always in hind sight that I could have spoken up. This needs to change, as it has bugged me in the past and continues to annoy me throughout life.

So no more complaints and no more excuses. I shall silently setup the things I need to get done. I haven’t failed spectacularly in a while but I have confidence in picking myself up again, so if I have to fail to wake up, I’ll brace for it and let it come.

I’ve set the ball rolling. I feel that things are starting to move along. Now we’ll see where I end up.

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Just have the idea to plant some peas. This means another pot and I have some dead branches for support (chopped off from the sprawling willow tree up front). I wonder as to the kind of person I am, preferring not to get too caught up with the world, but sometimes you find yourself struggling against it. There are simpler things in life, like harvesting chillis from the chilli plant my ex housemate gave me (which I’m grateful for, it’s produced a wonderful crop so far and continues to produce even more). I am happpy when I get to use something from my herb garden for cooking, as it is fresh and more fragrant than anything you can purchase from the market or stores. I’m just short of rearing my own lifestock. I wouldn’t mind doing it if I had acres of grassland behind my house. Heh.

It’s been a while since I’ve had to do any soul searching. You are always busy with one thing or another. We tend to not stop and think when life is just pushing you on. Like any journey, sometimes you have to stop and ask for directions, just to see if you are going the right way. After that, you just have to make a choice.