Roadblocks

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Like that nostalgic film feel. Sometimes sunsets just give you that dramatic feel, and you don’t need to do much to the picture to get it to look good.

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I wonder how Robinson Crusoe managed to keep himself motivated all those days alone on the island before he met Friday. Sometimes I do think we need people around to motivate ourselves to do stuff. I can’t recall what it was like and what drove me to persevere with my interests, even when I hit roadblocks. These days there seem to be plenty of roadblocks all around and I’m not feeling terribly inspired to do things. It could probably stem down to having too many interests. 10 years ago, I was only interested in computers, drawing and writing poetry. Heh, the last two items have been dropped, although I’m keen to sketch every now and then but that’s like a time machine going back as my sketches have not evolved since 1999. These days I’m into gardening, cooking, photography and computers. Gardening is still new for me, but pretty much depends on the weather when four seasons are involved. Cooking is just a matter of how much you want to spend on ingredients and then the time you’d like to allocate to prepare it. For photography, I know more theory than I have put into practice, and these days, I’m more interested in photographing people than most other things, which is a challenge in itself. There are opportunities coming up, but I need to practice to improve, so currently it’s all moving at a snail’s pace. Computers just cost money, heh, end of story. As much as I like building HTPCs and file servers, I don’t really require more than one and they also take up space and contribute to my electricity bill, so unless something radical comes up, it’s not something I’d like to indulge in more often than I need to.

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So the plan with tackling the procrastination associated with doing things is to just start it. It begins tomorrow morning, so we’ll see how I fair by the end of the day.

The Little Steps

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Not the most interesting picture, but really trying to explore negative spaces and silhouettes. Not quite sure if it works. You do see the reflection of the tree and the sky. The lighting tells you it’s probably evening and the sun is setting. I just like the ripples in the water.

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Trying something different with my pictures. I’ve been having some doubts with whether I could produce anything new, so decided to bring the camera down to the river while walking Alfie. I’ve had many opportunities to take pictures there during sunset, so maybe the familiarity allows you to try something new. Again I should just emphasize to myself that it’s all about practicing until you get it right.

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Also picked up running again. With the iPhone, at least I can track my progress these days. Heh, haven’t really improved much since March, but then again, I haven’t run in a long while. The knee seems to be back in good shape, as I did two rounds through Princes Park and didn’t feel any pain. I started of with my intended pace and it deteriorated quite a bit after the first round. Will try to forge a familiar path near home instead and am eyeing one of the steep roads for uphill training. Aiming to do a 21km run in October. It’s the little steps you need to start taking before you can tackle the big things.

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Heh, I guess it just reinforces the idea that if you want to do anything, you just have to keep chipping away at it until you get enough momentum to stay in perpetual motion, or at least to stay moving long enough to get to one point in the journey before planning the next.

That Final 5%

in their own world

Sometimes you get lucky and capture moments like this, where everyone is doing something and you are wondering what the guy is thinking, or what the woman is looking for in her bag. I only managed a couple of shots before the train arrived to ferry them off.

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Sent out a couple more job applications. It’s still a struggle for me at times, as I have one application sitting there undone since Monday. It’s due tomorrow and it’s the last 5% of the application, yet it’s probably the most important 5% that determines whether I get selected for an interview or not. Some days the fear of rejection promotes procrastination. Heh, there are days when I’m not systematic about things, especially when I have to confront my own weaknesses.

I am also delaying pushing the publish button for my photo book. Most of the pictures are already in, and you could say it’s 5% to completion, and yet it’s probably the most important 5%. I’m deliberating between whether I should add text to describe the locations, but that would mean I’d need an extra pair of eyes to edit my writing style. Part of me just says that I should submit it, get a copy, and note for future any changes I’d like with my next project. It’s only easy for me to move on, when I don’t keep moving the goal posts. It’s like cooking, you prepare the meal and enjoy it for what it is, remembering to make adjustments to what you didn’t like the next time. There are times I imagine the meal in my head, and think I’d be able to do it. Sounds easy enough conceptually, and you know the pitfalls, which you’d like to avoid, but that means the meal remains a dream until you realise it.

It’s back and forth, these arguments with myself, and some days I get pass that starting line and end up on the finish lines, other days I’m just wandering aimlessly. Hence my continued reliance on posting something for the blog, to deliver something, to flesh out the thoughts so that I have a marker to know my progress, instead of gunning for the dimmest stars that seem furthest away.

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On the list of items to experiment on, fried chicken and a soup stock that goes with noodles. Heh, I’m also deliberating on dabbling with yeast to make pizza dough. The thin crust with basic toppings on basil, tomato and mozzarella water my mouth each time I think of it. There, I’ve said it. So come on, just do it!